It's okay not to be okay. Part 1.

When I first started to notice I was feeling down I was 15; I didn't just feel down like your having a crappy day, I felt down like I couldn't be bothered to face the day, I didn't want anyone to see me or me to see them, I didn't want to see the sun rise or the sun set. I wasn't feeling suicidal or depressed just down like I hadn't felt before. I'd move on with my day though, went to school, saw my friends, got home, saw my boyfriend and that was that. I didn't think feeling 'down' was an issue, so I didn't tell......

The realistic in relationships

The weight gain we nearly all experience, the remote control throw and the lovely stench of shit from your not so lovely boyfriend. It's a love hate. WE LOVE TO HATE THEM.

I cannot even tell you how much weight I gained since being in a realationship. I had never felt comfortable eating around boys so when I finally plucked up the courage to eat around my fella I felt great, I felt so great that I became an unstoppable eating machine. The amount of kebabs, extra large pasta portions and dominos I consumed was embarrasing. I was very much in denial that I was gaining weight, it wasn't until I was on holiday and me mam took a picture of me doing bow and arrow (THAT IS CORRECT) I realised I had developed the dreaded under gut. "Babe, shall we have a cosy night and get a pizza?", "I can't be bothered to cook tonight, chinese babe?","SWEETS ARE A MUST FOR X FACTOR FINAL". Do not fall into this trap ladies, it's dangerous.....

10 things all girls do but do not admit

1: The SNIFF test. Do not lie to me you've done it. Getting all ready to go and meet the lad you've been snapchatting for 2 weeks, you look bomb as fuck and makeup on fleek but do the goods smell good? A little rub and sniff never hurt no one, you dont want to risk getting freaky with a beaver that doesn't smell perfect.

2: Stalk. I do more stalking on Facebook than I do anything else. Hmm was Sophie this pretty in 2001? Wait when did Katie grow those melons because there's a gap between that photo in which she looks a B cup and this one where she's a double F? HANG ABOUT, Jessica has edited that photo? Ain't no doors that bend like that girl. It's great stalking until you accidently like Sophies picture of her and her Gran from a year ago and you legit shit your pants.....

Mental Health

I run a support group called Undercover Warriors which offers support to people affected by invisible illnesses. Part of that obviously involves mental illnesses like depression and anxiety. A while ago someone messaged me asking for help. They wanted to help someone they loved understand them and their anxiety better. For someone without anxiety or depression, or indeed any mental illness or condition, explaining what it’s like is almost like trying to explain colours to someone blind from birth. It seems impossible. So I’ve been going over this idea in my mind and I will attempt to try and explain what we go through as best I can. What follows is an open letter.  If you feel it explains how you feel and think it will help then I would love it if you would comment and share. I truly hope this helps someone.....